
yet…

a bipolar life
i look into your face
there is no trace
of recognition
in your eyes
and i don’t know
what gets me worse,
that you don’t know me
or how cliche
that first stanza sounds
getting right down to
the meat of the matter
we are living our lives
full of parting shots
and one-offs
no conversations had,
words left dangling,
left wondering,
as if a complete exchange
would signify,
i don’t know…
something
glb /// “…something”
like honey dripped from a cherry
to your tongue you bring a
sweetness to the world that I
have never tasted before
you twist and turn with every
drip of lust wrenched from
your lips as you spin like a
dervish in celebration and
anticipation of our nuptials
come here to me and let
me lift the veil, we know
better than the flowing
pearlescent frock you wear,
which we will enforce
as soon as I can get you alone
for now we’ll tow the
traditional line, if I can keep
myself away, on this altar,
vows said, you have kissed
me to attention and I am
prepared to march on
that alabaster keep
glb /// “a wedding song (non-traditional)”
i wanted that life,
two of us being and doing
two of us things
that roller-coaster
has only two seats, side by side
there’s a reason it’s called
a love-seat
snuggled together watching
a terrible movie
but as it worked itself out
that life ended before it
ever got the chance to begin…
i still do two of us things
hoping to catch the smallest glimpse
of how it might have been
trying to prove to myself
there is two of us room
in my solitary world
glb /// “two of us”
“she is so worth it”
an answer i give myself
if ever i find i am
in need of an answer
“she is so worth it”
an answer i give myself
if ever i wonder
why i came all this way
“you deserve it”
an answer i would give to you
if you should ask me
why i love you
you deserve to be loved,
you deserve to be held,
you deserve to be cherished
you deserve to be free…
from pain,
from loneliness,
to soar without fear
you deserve to be original
and be accepted for that
“i love you”
an answer i give you
whenever you say
“you’re a fool”
“i love you”
you don’t have to say anything
i will repeat it
until the end of time
glb /// “answers”
the string around my little finger
reminds me that it is possible to fix me
reminds me that i should not try to fix you
i tie it every night before i go to sleep
every morning, it is gone
i can’t find a trace of you
except in the pinkish, purplish
imprint where the string should be
glb /// “the string”
hanging on to something i do not need
slashes my palms
tears at my fingers
destroys my ability to put you behind me,
i am drawn,
though i am quartered,
every ounce of me
reaching out for you,
praying for some respite,
hoping for something from you
to ease my suffering
glb /// “quartered”
lift me up
with bright eyes,
twirl me around
with a smile
filled with smirks,
i am living in a sun beam
i float as long as there is light
reflected on your face
you are forever a soft voice,
warmth swirling
around my ear,
and blushing my cheek
soon we will sleep
and dream all of this
again
and
again
glb /// “lift me up”