sleepless 2 of 4

i was trying to figure out
how much promethazine
it would take to stop my pain

and i started thinking about
what happens to you when you
have the ability to save someone’s life
and you don’t

you just stand aside and
let everything run its course
as though you never existed

that later in your life
you start to believe
that because you didn’t do something
you somehow have
exempted yourself
from being part of a world
that is allowed to live
as if that was the moment
you decided whether or not
life was worth it

glb /// “sleepless 2”
originally published 04/05/2006