a bipolar life
i have an abiding compulsion to live
because sixteen years ago i did not think i would still be here
because ten years ago i did not think i would still be alive
because in those intervening years
there was an undercurrent of hope
because there was a pull on my being
because my presence here is important
because it is about more than just me
because whether you want to be it or not
it is about you too
glb /// “because”
originally published 01/14/2019
perfection is a mistake
we make that keeps
us from being perfect
glb /// “perfection”
originally published 11/02/2018
i feel it tighter
the flow moving slower
i anticipate
the flow stopping
nothing passes
all is possible
one encompasses
serenity
i have always been here
it feels so new
since the first time
i hold it to my chest
omniscient waves break
over the bow
everything for all
who feel the spray
gather round and listen
to the voice of wisdom
to the voice of treachery
to the voice of reason
they are all the same color
they are all the same
they are tighter
they are flowing slower
the flow
stops
glb /// “69 times”
originally published 02/20/2018
i love you
fills an empty heart,
it rattles around
the chambers
holding on to
the promise of
never ending
and
unrelenting
passion,
cries out
in painful gasps
struggling to breathe
through the dust
left in the
atrophied muscle
glb /// “i love you”
originally published 03/08/2019
my words are dying
for a muse,
hoping to get through
to someone that
might not even be
listening
my words are longing
for a touch
in places that
haven’t been touched
in so long
my words are trying
to break through
your defenses
hoping you will see
me for what i am
just a boy
in love
with a girl
glb /// “my words”
originally published 02/23/2019
speak
use your voice
use your words
go everywhere
you ever want to go
take me there
show me what
i have been missing
through the strains
of your prose
sing
use your rock
use your soul
create a new universe
don’t be afraid to go
pull me into you
show me the heartbeat
of your sun
let me feel
your dark attraction
fill my skies with
sparks and stars
make me yours
and i will be
without question
glb /// “speak”
originally published 03/21/2018
hold me now and please
don’t let me go,
i’ve come a long way
this day and all
i want is sleep
but, your eyes are bright
and inquisitive
so i will stay up,
we can talk for a while
put you hand in mine
feel it tremble with our
fingers entwined
i am not as i once was
i am not as expected,
i am as i fully am,
there’s nothing to
hide from you,
i couldn’t do it
if i tried
i have had days
confusing days
that i barely emerged from
i mean to tell you
about them,
explain them to you
from my perspective
my hope is that
in telling you my tale,
you will know something
more about me
if i am successful
you will know where
i come from,
the fires that made me,
and the demons that
still haunt me
give me a kiss
on my cheek
when you are ready
to begin
glb /// “a kiss on the cheek”
originally published 03/18/2018
if anyone knows my name
when my days are done
i hope it is you,
you’re the one that means
the most to me
when my time comes
let me put my hand in yours
let me put my head on your chest
and let me hear your strong heartbeat
as i take my last breath
and sigh your name one last time
glb /// “untitled #601”
originally published 09/02/2018
going sideways 