tear me apart

tear me apart
with your well wishes
this isn’t the game
we were meant to play

build your walls higher
and I will still try to scale them
I wasn’t always there
and you were absent too
my effort to repair that fault
should at least be a token
of my intent to bridge
the chasm we are divided by

I have made every effort
that I am capable of
being shut out is nothing
I ever bargained for
if what I am is not good
enough for you and your family
I guess that is something
I am not a part of anymore

that just makes me sad

— GB


Happy Standard Time everyone (EST for me).  If you haven’t done it yet, it’s time to push your clock backward off the headboard and get a new one that has the correct time on it.  At least that’s the way I do it.  It is getting kind of cluttered back there but, at least I don’t have to figure out how to set it.  The microwave and Blu-Ray player are a different story.   Sometimes I get excited, that the problem has been solved, then I realize it’s just a countdown timer for my cup-o-noodles.  Then they just sit and blink at me until my 12 year old nephew comes for a visit (usually about once a year).

Now that the day’s light will feel like it is significantly decreasing, it’s time to talk a little about SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder).  While I don’t consider myself to suffer from SAD, I am affected a little by the changing of the light\dark cycle that this time of year brings.  I do, however, have a few friends that are affected and take SAD very seriously.  According to the NIMH (National Institute for Mental Health), SAD comes from daily body rhythms being out-of-sync with the sun.  The NIMH further suggests that people with SAD respond positively to a low dose of Melatonin in the afternoon and a bright light in the morning.  Of course, you should always consult your doctor before starting any treatment plan.  While melatonin is relatively inexpensive, a light box can be pretty pricey and may not even work for SAD.  Here’s what to look for when you’re buying a light box.
If you suffer from SAD, please share your story and/or treatment plan.