it happened

it has to have happened
one time
someone believed
the story i was telling
someone picked me up
looked into my eyes
and saw that
i was still there

it has to have happened
one time
someone saw past
the gibberish
i was speaking
to an empty chair
and put their arms
around me
so i wouldn’t have to
go through it alone

it has to have happened
one time
i sat and stared
out the window
trying to convince myself
that i had
a place in this world
and someone
encouraged me
to take inventory
of my life
to look at everything
that is inside
to be proud
of who i am

it has to have happened
one time
you took a chance
on loving me
wholly
giving me
a place to rest
something to count on
the ability
to be free

it has happened
over and over again
i fall asleep
and wake up
knowing that
you are with me
holding my hand
a kiss on my cheek
smiling with me
feeling more love
than ever before

glb /// “it happened”
originally published 09/13/2017

untitled #121

what do we do when
change goes the wrong way
and we cannot go back
to the place that once was

the door is shut
to the wants we used to want
we can no longer touch
the haves we used to have

moving forward
on broken desires
causes pains we never had
in places we never knew

in the essence of this experience
something new overtakes
something old we still crave
quickly enough to question
the existence of the past

only when acceptance
gives way to indulgence
does the knowledge of the past
coalesce

glb /// “untitled #121”
originally published 12/04/2013