untitled #512

i carry a lot around
with me
more than i need to
a hell of a lot
more than i should

i want it all to be
right at the surface
where it can be accessed
without any
rummaging around
without the chance of
missing the moment

constantly ready for
something to happen
but
it rarely does
still
i carry my load around
with me
the weight of it
pulling me down
dulling my senses

until i could no more
jump at a chance
than i could
win a marathon

i sit and i
look at where i am
and i simply ask
why?

glb /// “untitled #512”
originally published 05/29/2015