Thinking of you

I heard this song tonight and I really listened to it, then I looked up the words and I listened to it again, then again and when I had gone through it again for the ninth time I was sitting and sobbing because it reminded me of you.  It reminded me of you and me.  Now, I wish that you were here with me, listening too.  This is the part that caught my attention.

“Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don’t just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know

So close no matter how far
Couldn’t be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No nothing else matters”

from “Nothing Else Matters”
by Metallica

… And Justice for All

I am banging my head against the wall
Music pounds me,
Rattles and shatters my brain,
I pound my fists
Stomp my feet to the relentless rhythm
The wall pushes me back
Hands
Arms
Limbs
I am in the grasp
Of the mosh,
I tumble
Roll
Kick
Punch
I taste dirt
Mixed with blood
Weightless
Up
Against the wall
Above it
Falling
Giant yellow pillow
Points the way out
Through the door,
I dive back in

— GB

A Sob Story

I cry at the drop of a hat. Just about anything can set it off. Seeing someone else crying is probably the number one trigger. Another one is the singing of “God Bless America” during the seventh inning stretch at a baseball game. Actually, I get teary-eyed anytime I hear the song now. It’s not so much the song as it is the tradition of singing it that was introduced in remembrance of 9/11.

Other triggers include:

–The last five minutes of the NBC Nightly News. There’s usually a poignant story there that moistens my eyes.

–Crowds singing along and singing louder than the band at a concert, something about that level fandom really gets to me.

–Random song lyrics, I can be driving along or sitting at home and hear something in the singer’s inflection or a lyric that I hadn’t thought about before that opens the floodgates.

–The VT Hokies Football team running onto the field in Lane Stadium to the blaring of “Enter Sandman” by Metallica and the camera panning the crowd to show the all the fans jumping in unison.

These are just the things that I know will affect me. There’s always something else that will take me by surprise and turn me into a blubbering fool. I’m not exactly sure why that is. Even when I’ve been caught in a deep depression, I haven’t had the tendency to cry like I do with the items above.