lightning

lightning peels back
my already shattered sky
i am still jolted
not ready for the crack
although i see it break
i tried to embrace it
become one with it
if it would not become
one with me

out in the middle
of a field turning
around and around
making myself the
tallest thing for miles
making myself as
much of a target
as i can hope to be

i anticipate the blast
i am braced for the shock
of heartache, of melancholy,
of grief at your inability to
love me enough that i
must go diving into
driving thunderheads
just to find what i imagine
what my own life is
supposed to feel like

glb /// “lightning”
originally published 12/13/2015

this night

i have spent this night,
some hours worth,
touching old words
brought new through
the passage of time,
hoping they will be met
as golden gifts
meant to move the mind
and the heart

i have spent this night,
mourning to the point
of exhaustion,
communing with buried
souls, since removed
from my reach,
longing for a soft touch

i have spent this night,
falling in love with the dark,
sobs turned to laughter,
echoing through my
vacancy

i have spent this night,
practicing smiling into the mirror,
wincing at the horrible countenance
staring back at me

glb /// “this night”
originally published 05/26/2019

catch on to

i want to reach out and catch on to something
red, black, green, blue… anything
that is going by
pulling me with it,
on to places
unknown
full of wonder
birds and lights
music and bright motorcycles
driving headlong into the night
filled with stars and the scent of moon flowers
all disappearing at the sign of first light
returning me to my perch when i will continue
my search for something to catch on to

glb /// “catch on to”
originally published 02/24/2014

untitled 1028

i’m feeling twilight
my arms and legs
feel heavy
yet they are floating
on translucent blue air

i’m feeling midnight
all weight is gone
i am soaring through
the black star speckled sky
searching for you
on your nightly flight

i’m feeling daybreak
measuring my night
in terms of time spent
with you across the universe
in search of sunrise
you’re here next to me
dreaming with a
smile on your face

glb /// “untitled 1028”
going-sideways.com original

a love game

when my heart slows
to a dangerous
thump…………..thump

thump

i can feel you sitting
on my chest
pushing the life out
of me

for your amusement

that is all i ever was to you,
a willing plaything

now you are gone
and i crave the pressure
i long for you
killing me

glb /// “a love game”
originally published 04/10/2014

you can’t erase me

you can’t erase me
I am a genuine article
of clothing pulled on
against the cold that
freezes the streets
and trees that keeps
us away from each
other for so long we
believe that we don’t
exist but that is not
your way out of this
because I am right
here a few miles
away which feels like
forever since I’ve
seen you though
I know it’s only
been a few days

glb /// “you can’t erase me”
originally published 02/13/2014

every morning since…

there’s a slight bump
i reach out to you
and the bed is empty
warm where you were
with a vague scent of
your perfume

i slumber on your side
i don’t want you to
return to cold sheets
i don’t sleep very
well when you’re
not in bed with me

sunrise is seconds
away and you have
not returned to join
me, where have you
gone?

this happens every
morning since…

glb /// “every morning since…”
originally published 02/09/2014

i am missing you

i am missing you
and your coffee-caramel-sea salt kisses
waking me on Sunday mornings

i am missing you
and tonight is especially
bad for no good reason

i am missing you
because things are happening
and i just want to be with you

i am missing you
I want to share everything
with you, I want you

glb /// “i am missing you”
originally published 09/08/2018