the rainbow of our dysfunction

the winds of this rainbow
surround me with varied
colors falling to the ground

i didn’t want this to break
like that
nothing beautiful should be
sacrificed to the hands of
our dysfunction

rainbows can be rebuilt
you just need the right
amounts of water and light

what we had will not be
as easy
i don’t know what amounts
of anything will be able
to set us right

glb /// “the rainbow of our dysfunction”
originally published 03/25/2014

door 521

one flight up and through
door 521 is the first real
home where i lived
alone, my life solitary,
not lonely, full of life,
full of music and light.

a place, where i learned
things, about life, about
love, about death and
mortality, about the
nature of being human,
about human nature,
i learned about how
to be a friend, and how
to deal with betrayal,

i learned about music,
about sex, i learned
to appreciate the sound
of freedom, even in
the middle of a migraine

i learned how to write,
how to get deep down
inside and express the
deepest and the darkest

i learned how to escape
into myself, i learned what
depression really is

but most of all, wrapping
all these things and more
together i learned
what it is to be me

glb /// “door 521”
originally published 01/17/2014