Tag: Life

the completed playlist

Posted on by Gavin

i am feeling like the emptiness
of a completed playlist…

the realization that
nothing is coming next,
the silence pervades
and instead of choosing something
else to listen to,
i just sit and pay attention
to the vacancy,
ignoring the force inside me
wanting to immediately
start something up,
to fill the void,
instead, i listen to my heart,
to my breathing,
to my weight in this world,
instead, i notice everything else
and i find contentment
in my inaction,
because, though i haven’t
physically moved,
mountains have traveled
within me

glb /// “the completed playlist”
originally published 01.14.2019

when the truth surfaces

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when the truth surfaces,
we will not be able to
comprehend how long
it has been held under,
gasping and grasping for
the ability to breathe in the life
needed to spread it to every dark
corner, to billow the sails of every
fast ship, to light signal fires
on the tallest peaks, to speak
in the loudest most forceful voices,
to be heard, to be understood,
that is, after all, the only thing
it has ever wanted

glb /// “when the truth surfaces”
originally published 05/02/2014

experience it

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bring me that beat you’ve been hiding
in those turntable stacks
pound it into my skull
and pull it out my sternum

now launch that melody
let it soar up through the lights
and down into my pliable brain
watch it weave its way
around my synapses
as they fire to your will

you have control over
everything Master DJ
flip my world inside out
make it bend and burn
and end only to be brought
back with a rocket full
of searing chords until…

i am spent, gelatinous,
in danger of being trampled
or mopped up as the club
empties, eager for the end
of the next week to come
back and experience it
all again

glb /// “experience it”
originally published 03/21/2014

back

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i loved each and every one of you
that were touching my life is some simple way
in a flash you were gone and it
took two whole years to pull some of you back
into the black space i was inhabiting
you didn’t understand, maybe you still don’t
but at least you are back and we have
a place to start, shaky footing at times
but it us better than having solid nothing

glb /// “back”
originally published 01/27/2014

69 times

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i feel it tighter
the flow moving slower
i anticipate
the flow stopping

nothing passes
all is possible
one encompasses
serenity

i have always been here
it feels so new
since the first time
i hold it to my chest

omniscient waves break
over the bow
everything for all
who feel the spray

gather round and listen
to the voice of wisdom
to the voice of treachery
to the voice of reason
they are all the same color
they are all the same
they are tighter
they are flowing slower
the flow
stops

glb /// “69 times”
originally published 02/20/2018

speak

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speak
use your voice
use your words
go everywhere
you ever want to go

take me there
show me what
i have been missing
through the strains
of your prose

sing
use your rock
use your soul
create a new universe
don’t be afraid to go

pull me into you
show me the heartbeat
of your sun
let me feel
your dark attraction
fill my skies with
sparks and stars

make me yours
and i will be
without question

glb /// “speak”
originally published 03/21/2018

a kiss on the cheek

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hold me now and please
don’t let me go,
i’ve come a long way
this day and all
i want is sleep

but, your eyes are bright
and inquisitive
so i will stay up,
we can talk for a while

put you hand in mine
feel it tremble with our
fingers entwined

i am not as i once was
i am not as expected,
i am as i fully am,
there’s nothing to
hide from you,
i couldn’t do it
if i tried

i have had days
confusing days
that i barely emerged from

i mean to tell you
about them,
explain them to you
from my perspective

my hope is that
in telling you my tale,
you will know something
more about me

if i am successful
you will know where
i come from,
the fires that made me,
and the demons that
still haunt me

give me a kiss
on my cheek
when you are ready
to begin

glb /// “a kiss on the cheek”
originally published 03/18/2018

untitled #601

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if anyone knows my name
when my days are done
i hope it is you,
you’re the one that means
the most to me

when my time comes
let me put my hand in yours
let me put my head on your chest
and let me hear your strong heartbeat
as i take my last breath
and sigh your name one last time

glb /// “untitled #601”
originally published 09/02/2018