catch on to

i want to reach out and catch on to something
red, black, green, blue… anything
that is going by
pulling me with it,
on to places
unknown
full of wonder
birds and lights
music and bright motorcycles
driving headlong into the night
filled with stars and the scent of moon flowers
all disappearing at the sign of first light
returning me to my perch when i will continue
my search for something to catch on to

glb /// “catch on to”
originally published 02/24/2014

first blush

i don’t remember the exact moment
though i can recall the feeling
when you came into my life and changed it forever
there were fireworks
distant peals of thunder
sparks flew wildly
to illuminate your beautiful face
stars fell from the sky
and twinkled in your eyes

that feeling is with me still
whenever i think of you,
especially now that
you are in my life again,
it comes straight from my soul
from where you left your mark
so many years ago

i have carried you around with me
for such a long time now
that you are a permanent
part of me
which is why we fit together
so naturally
so instinctively
so perfectly

so, that moment
all those years ago
even though that memory
is not as clear as i’d like
i still have
fireworks
thunder
sparks
and
stars
to show me the way
back to you

glb /// “first blush”
going-sideways.com original

moment

there’s a moment
there’s a hue
there’s a shadow
there’s a bright
too bright
to observe, directly

in that moment
fleeting feelings
wraiths of blue
scatterings of yellow
drops of laughter
rivers of lust

still,
that moment remains,
elusive,
i shudder when i try
recognition slips away
arms empty

i kneel in my own
confusion,
asking only for a sign,
finding vacancy
after vacancy
moment fleeting

for the longest
moment,
my heart hurts
like my head,
wrapped in velvet
sandpaper,
ripping and comforting
all at once

hoping
a moment will bring
truth
like i imagine
having been lost
to so many
silent blows

for a moment
the parking lot
for a car
it’s all so much
background noise
spinning me
to the ground
interring me

ending that moment

unprepared for the next

glb /// “moment”
originally published 12/27/2017

in every being

in every being…

lines and riddles
and
cries and giggles

slip quickly from hands
that do not know
what they are missing

soft winds
through the leaves,
kissing chimes
crystals sparkle,
whispering tiny songs
of hope
that expand with every breath
into gales strong enough
to embrace the world,
quiet enough to
reveal the sounds
of the autumn sky

glb /// “in every being”
originally published 03/24/2017

13 days

13 days to live or die

i chose the former,
the universe…
the latter

i do not know
the ferocity
of the fight,
only that it left
unbelievable
scars

it changed me
in ways i cannot
even begin to explain

for better
for worse
i am still here

for yes
for no
i answer your call
i answer your questions

i feel my longing
in the chasm of the night
until
the opaque gray morning
filters in
revealing your empty
side of the bed

i try not to react
to your endless absence,
dressing quickly
i slip into the
misty morning

i scribble your name
into the dew on my car
continually checking
over my shoulder
hoping you’ll catch me…

glb /// “13 days”
originally published 03/16/2019