a kiss on the cheek

hold me now and please
don’t let me go,
i’ve come a long way
this day and all
i want is sleep

but, your eyes are bright
and inquisitive
so i will stay up,
we can talk for a while

put you hand in mine
feel it tremble with our
fingers entwined

i am not as i once was
i am not as expected,
i am as i fully am,
there’s nothing to
hide from you,
i couldn’t do it
if i tried

i have had days
confusing days
that i barely emerged from

i mean to tell you
about them,
explain them to you
from my perspective

my hope is that
in telling you my tale,
you will know something
more about me

if i am successful
you will know where
i come from,
the fires that made me,
and the demons that
still haunt me

give me a kiss
on my cheek
when you are ready
to begin

— glb

13 days

13 days to live or die

I chose the former,
the universe…
the latter

i do not know
the ferocity
of the fight,
only that it left
unbelievable
scars

it changed me
in ways i cannot
even begin to explain

for better
for worse
i am still here

for yes
for no
i answer your call
i answer your questions

i feel my longing
in the chasm of the night
until
the opaque gray morning
filters in
revealing your empty
side of the bed

i try not to react
to your endless absence,
dressing quickly
i slip into the
misty morning

i scribble your name
into the dew on my car
continually checking
over my shoulder
hoping you’ll catch me…

– glb

it weighs on me

it weighs on me,
one million little pounds,
rake me across the coals
for seven empty minutes…

birthed again,
crashing into the world
literally less
than i was

even after all i’ve said,
and done,
i cry into the night
GIVE ME BACK!!!!

fill me in
PLEASE!!!!
make me whole,
let me stop
the constant search

put your hand on me,
trace my scars,
fill me up
with endless possibilities

shadowed potential
only reveals itself
when stumbling backwards
into my awakening

— glb

my dream of the dream

sometimes in the night
my dream of the dream
is simple,
i want you to be enthralled
with your life
i, in turn, wish for mine to be equally ecstatic…

the dream isn’t specific
about us,
as to whether we’re together,
except at the very end,
when we’re very old…

i take my last breaths
with your hand in mine,
gazing into your beautiful eyes

— glb

the death and rebirth of the universe

I was laying on the beach,
watching the stars
implode and shatter,
then fall from the sky

it was pitch black
the only thing left
were tears and curses

why must my loss
mean the fall of
so many worlds

then I was running,
toward the pier,
as fast as the sand
would allow me to go

I found you at the end,
past the wheel and coaster,
standing on the second rail
knees against the top

climbing up next to you,
I pulled you to the top rail,
kissed you quick,
then we both jumped

down and down
into the cool, refreshing
water, such a relief
after what we had seen

we floated for a while,
then swam to the shore
where we stumbled
onto the sand

as we leaned into each other
trying to find a way to
get warm, something caught
the corner of my eye

a light little twinkle
in the center of the
dark sky, followed by
another, then another,
then some more

they were all coming
back, it all happened
because your hand
was in mine and you
were making me happy

— GB

permanence

compressions cease,
pain bleeds out in
a relief I would
never have known
possible to feel

breathe out in one
enormous rush,
quiet reigns for
as long as it takes
to realize it is time
to fight

there is still enough
light in my eyes to
communicate that

compressions
resume,
in a constant crush
teasing life back
into me,
tenuous at first,
growing more
permanent

that’s what I am
seeking, now that
I have seen nothing,
permanence

— GB