a kiss on the cheek

hold me now and please
don’t let me go,
i’ve come a long way
this day and all
i want is sleep

but, your eyes are bright
and inquisitive
so i will stay up,
we can talk for a while

put you hand in mine
feel it tremble with our
fingers entwined

i am not as i once was
i am not as expected,
i am as i fully am,
there’s nothing to
hide from you,
i couldn’t do it
if i tried

i have had days
confusing days
that i barely emerged from

i mean to tell you
about them,
explain them to you
from my perspective

my hope is that
in telling you my tale,
you will know something
more about me

if i am successful
you will know where
i come from,
the fires that made me,
and the demons that
still haunt me

give me a kiss
on my cheek
when you are ready
to begin

— glb

recurring dishevelment

there it is
i woke up

which world am i awake in?

panic consumes at light speed
i don’t know when i am

what is that electric wave i’m feeling?
it’s the thrill of waking up beside you

my hand can’t find you
my lips go unkissed…

there it is
i woke up

which when is this?

these worlds are occurring
on different planes

thrown together inside
my disheveled mind

my dishevelment knows no bounds
it repeats in my world
layer by layer,

things have their places
but nothing fits

it all just ends up where it lands
no matter how hard I try
to put everything right

there it is
i woke up
to my recurring dishevelment

— glb

i am missing you

i am missing you
and your coffee-caramel-sea salt kisses
waking me on Sunday mornings

i am missing you
and tonight is especially
bad for no good reason

i am missing you
because things are happening
and i just want to be with you

i am missing you
I want to share everything
with you, I want you

— glb

the completed playlist…

I am feeling like the emptiness
of a completed playlist…

the realization that
nothing is coming next,
the silence pervades
and instead of choosing something
else to listen to,
I just sit and pay attention
to the vacancy,
ignoring the force inside me
wanting to immediately
start something up,
to fill the void,
instead,
I listen to my heart,
to my breathing,
to my weight in this world,
instead,
I notice everything else
and I find contentment
in my inaction,
because, though I haven’t
physically moved,
mountains have traveled
within me

— glb