where is it?

where is it?
this ideal
that we talked about
that we swore upon
that we struggled to uphold

it is a broken dream
that only rattles around
hurting our souls

it got caught in
some memories
and choked on
expectations

fantasies of that
pure, bygone love
disintegrated right
in front of our eyes

what are we to do
with our misspent desires?

is there anything
to be salvaged
from our
broken egos
crushed desires
and
demolished hearts?

— glb

Crush

Every time I hear this song I think it means something else
Tonight I’m feeling distant from everything
The house is empty, the sky is empty and my mind is roiling
Then this song comes on and I identify with a feeling, I thinkā€¦
Instead of emptiness, I am feeling an immense heaviness
The exquisite Crush
The ecstatic Crush
The Crush I pray to feel for life

This is:

Crush
by David John Matthews

Crazy how it feels tonight
Crazy how you make it all alright love
You crush me with the things you do
I do for you anything too
Sitting, smoking, feeling high
In this moment it feels so right

Lovely lady
I am at your feet
God I want you so badly
I wonder this
Could tomorrow be
So wondrous as you there sleeping
Let’s go drive ’til morning comes

Watch the sunrise
To fill our souls up
Drink some wine ’til we get drunk
It’s crazy I’m thinking
Just knowing that the world is round

Here I’m dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
Is this real or am I dreaming

Lovely lady
Let me drink you please
I won’t spill a drop, I promise you
Lying under this spell you cast on me

Each moment
The more I love you
Crush me
Come on
It’s crazy I’m thinking

Just knowing that the world is round
Here I’m dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
Is it real or am I dreaming
Lovely lady I will treat you sweetly

Adore you
I mean
You crush me
It’s times like these
When my faith I feel
And I know
How I love you
Come on
Lady

It’s crazy I’m thinking
Just as long as you’re around
And here I’ll be dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
To each other we’ll be facing
By love we’ll beat back the pain

We’ve found
You know
I mean to tell you all the things I’ve been thinking deep inside
My friend
With each moment the more I love you
Crush me
Come on
Lady

So much you have given love
That I would give you back
Again and again
Meaning I’ll hold you
And please
Let me always

you are

you are in my periphery
you are my focus
you are always where i look
you are inside my eye lid
… wrapped around my optic nerve
you are everywhere, evident in everything
you are just below the horizon, and when you rise
… sparks scream across the morning sky
you are the perfect ending to the perfect love story
you are the dark spaces between the stars
you are also the stars
you are sriracha on my tongue
you quench my thirst like the coldest water
you make my mouth burn, with that over the shoulder glance
you are insomnia with the best best dreams
you are original
you are my heart
you are a steady beat
you are the dirtiest guitar solo
you are the gulp of air going off the high dive
you are the plunge
you are slow motion at a break neck pace
you are temptation quenched
you are home
you are in our bed
you are in my arms
you take me to places i never imagined
you are answers to riddles
you are a Bon Jovi concert every night for the rest of my life
you are front row seats

you are
so i am

… glb

our music

sing me songs of
light through the pines,
couples holding hands,
big billowing clouds

play my soul
like an instrument of love,
push me down a trill
jump on my staccato

hum sweet melodies
into my ear and fill the
quiet ebbs with flows
of kisses from
your sweet mouth

wind up my music box heart,
lay your head on my chest
and listen as it strums out
songs of our love

… GLB

Sad Songs

I sing the sad songs
Under my breath
Only a slight whisper
Detectable by
Those drawn near

Holding back on the words
I struggle to
Squelch the tears,
They come
None the less

Attempting to release the pain
I tilt my head back
Pushing my sobs to the sky
Tears trickle into my ears

Shaking my head to clear them
I catch a glimpse of you
In the doorway

The only way I know
Of making me smile
During sad songs

— GLB

The Ultimate Setlist

Yes, there is love
But first, there is music
It spans all
It brings us up
It brings us down
But most of all
It brought us together
It binds us still today

The melody grabs you
The words pull you in
The combination
Wraps itself around your heart
With the promise
Of never letting go

We search for
The ultimate setlist
Something that speaks
To our soul
Brings memories
Brings tears
Brings joy
Perfection in every track

The soundtracks of
Our lives
Each song building
On the last
Until it is locked into
Your very being

Find it
Hear it
Hold it
May it never go away

— GLB