my dream of the dream

sometimes in the night
my dream of the dream
is simple,
i want you to be enthralled
with your life
i, in turn, wish for mine to be equally ecstatic…

the dream isn’t specific
about us,
as to whether we’re together,
except at the very end,
when we’re very old…

i take my last breaths
with your hand in mine,
gazing into your beautiful eyes

— glb

Crush

Every time I hear this song I think it means something else
Tonight I’m feeling distant from everything
The house is empty, the sky is empty and my mind is roiling
Then this song comes on and I identify with a feeling, I think…
Instead of emptiness, I am feeling an immense heaviness
The exquisite Crush
The ecstatic Crush
The Crush I pray to feel for life

This is:

Crush
by David John Matthews

Crazy how it feels tonight
Crazy how you make it all alright love
You crush me with the things you do
I do for you anything too
Sitting, smoking, feeling high
In this moment it feels so right

Lovely lady
I am at your feet
God I want you so badly
I wonder this
Could tomorrow be
So wondrous as you there sleeping
Let’s go drive ’til morning comes

Watch the sunrise
To fill our souls up
Drink some wine ’til we get drunk
It’s crazy I’m thinking
Just knowing that the world is round

Here I’m dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
Is this real or am I dreaming

Lovely lady
Let me drink you please
I won’t spill a drop, I promise you
Lying under this spell you cast on me

Each moment
The more I love you
Crush me
Come on
It’s crazy I’m thinking

Just knowing that the world is round
Here I’m dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
Is it real or am I dreaming
Lovely lady I will treat you sweetly

Adore you
I mean
You crush me
It’s times like these
When my faith I feel
And I know
How I love you
Come on
Lady

It’s crazy I’m thinking
Just as long as you’re around
And here I’ll be dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
To each other we’ll be facing
By love we’ll beat back the pain

We’ve found
You know
I mean to tell you all the things I’ve been thinking deep inside
My friend
With each moment the more I love you
Crush me
Come on
Lady

So much you have given love
That I would give you back
Again and again
Meaning I’ll hold you
And please
Let me always

the completed playlist…

I am feeling like the emptiness
of a completed playlist…

the realization that
nothing is coming next,
the silence pervades
and instead of choosing something
else to listen to,
I just sit and pay attention
to the vacancy,
ignoring the force inside me
wanting to immediately
start something up,
to fill the void,
instead,
I listen to my heart,
to my breathing,
to my weight in this world,
instead,
I notice everything else
and I find contentment
in my inaction,
because, though I haven’t
physically moved,
mountains have traveled
within me

— glb