broke

what broke inside me,
to cause so much turmoil,
to ones i hold dear?

what pressure was too much,
to shatter so completely?

i have no clear evidence,
only glimpses of light,
to steer me through the darkness,
to make my wrongs into right

it hasn’t been bad forever,
despite how interminable it feels,
trying to get back to normal,
will take a lifetime of years

so i wait for doctors,
to pronounce my fate,
and tell me,
why i broke so fast,
and they arrived too late

glb /// “broke”
originally published 10/20/2013