Sweet P

I woke up in the middle of the night
My chest was empty and heavy
I turned over to find our Sweet P

Snuggled up between us on the bed
Purring like there was no tomorrow
I put my hand on her
She let out a quiet squawk
To let me know she knew

My hand found yours
Are fingers entwined
Cradling her small body
We were the brightest stars in the universe

Ever so slowly
Our sweet baby’s breathing grew short
She began to fade,
Not harshly,
Not laboured,
On her own terms
She went slowly
Communing with us
Showing us that this was the last of her wishes
With a tiny squawk
Miss P let out her final breath
And closed her eyes
In mere moments she was gone

With our hands still clasped
We stayed there for a while…
I fell asleep

When I stirred we still held hands
But Prudence was gone
I could feel my tears on my pillow

Just then, beyond belief
Not sure of this new encounter
A squawk at the top of her lungs
And little bounce tiny stride
Sweet P climbed in between us
And demanded to be seen and heard
You can be sure she was
You can be sure she was


A Kiss

If if were real
And I could hold it in your hand
That would be a blessing
For my reality

When you become actual
A little at a time
I can kiss tiny pieces
Until you are whole

As time draws circles
Around our embrace
Slowly tightening it’s grasp,
I rejoice amidst the pressure
Squeezing us into one

When when has space
Enough to breathe
I inhale deeply
Filling my entire being
With you

Now is then
When we first were we
Fighting through a wave
For something
We might have known
Would set us on a path
To somewhere
We still exist

I stay awake all week
Dreaming of you
And when we finally meet
Those words
That changed our course
A kiss



“she is so worth it”
an answer I give myself
if ever I find I am
in need of an answer

“she is so worth it”
an answer I give myself
if ever I wonder
why I came all this way

“you deserve it”
an answer I would give to you
if you should ask me
why I love you

you deserve to be loved,
you deserve to be held,
you deserve to be cherished

you deserve to be free…
from pain,
from loneliness,
to soar without fear

you deserve to be original
and be accepted for that

“I love you”
an answer I give you
whenever you say
“you’re a fool”

“I love you”
you don’t have to say anything
I will repeat it
until the end of time


I am not sleeping

I am not sleeping
Because I am watching you
Furrowed brow
Hands clenched
You shudder and shake
Whisper parts of words
I try to decipher them
But they are gone too soon
I can’t resist
My finger softly
Across your cheek
Sometimes brings a faint smile
I want to put my arms around you
But stop myself
Not wanting to disturb you
I am not sleeping
My dream is right here
In front of me