I know you but
I do not recall
The problem with ECT can be explained just like this. It has been 15 months since my last treatment and I am still having memory problems. I say “still” because I don’t know if these issues are supposed to go away or if they’re going to be permanent. I can, for the most part, create new memories. Sometimes, it takes repetition to imprint something on my mind. For instance, the major city I live near, has a tricky street configuration. I’ve been living here for a year and a half and I still don’t have it down. There are a couple of places I go on a regular basis and I can make it there and back very easily, but if I try to go other places I get turned around very easily. I don’t know if that is because of ECT or maybe some medication I’m taking. If I have a list of things to do or to shop for, I always make notes if there are more than two items. Other things happen, that I have mentioned before; I often times have problems choosing words when I am speaking. I can’t come up with the proper word to express the thought I am trying to communicate. Sometimes I can’t come up with the word I need to complete a sentence when I’m writing. I have no idea what to attribute that to. If I am reading aloud, I often stumble over words that appear to come in the wrong order. I combat this by slowing down and reading like a kindergartener. Those are just a few things that I deal with on a regular basis. Some, I know, are due to ECT. Others are caused by a number of other things. I may have come a long way since the break and I may be stronger now than I was even a year ago. There are still good size cracks in my exterior. I have to figure out a way to fill them and/or keep them from keeping me from making progress.