Suicidal Ideation

I can’t say that I have never thought about committing suicide but it has been a really long time since I have. I mean, really, truly thinking about and planning ways to kill myself.  Even then, I never started to go through with anything.  I wouldn’t be here if I had.  I would have been successful.  I believe that wanting and thinking and planning ways to do away with yourself change a person in a way that I’m not sure I can put my finger on.  Suicidal Ideation runs low with me now.  I say that because every once in a while, especially while I’m driving I think “It would be so easy to end it all right now,  I could pull off into that ditch or I could just take my hands off the wheel and let the car drift into oncoming traffic.”  I have these thoughts whether I’m depressed, manic, or level.  I think that because I have experienced stronger Suicidal Ideation, I am more prone to have these thoughts even when I’m well and not suffering from any of my Bipolar symptoms.

Do people that do not suffer from mental illness of any kind have any Suicidal Ideation?  I’m very interested in hearing from you?

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